Lessons from the Glory
It happened. I’ve been asking the Lord for more than a year,
and it happened. I saw a glory cloud. I’ve just returned from more than a week
in Redding, CA where I attended a Leaders Advance conference at Bethel Church –
800 leaders and pastors from 37 countries. I stayed a few extra days to spend
time with friends.
All week, the Presence of God almost felt tangible. It’s why
I love going to Bethel. During the conference, the hunger and single-minded
focus on Jesus of everyone there was inspiring, and I wouldn’t have been
surprised if a glory cloud showed up at any one of those meetings – even if we
were talking about strategic parking plans or discussing the coffee shop
offerings – everything was focused on Jesus. Everything in heaven centres on
Jesus, so if I had been heaven’s stage director, I would definitely have chosen
one of those high points to introduce the glory cloud.
But it didn’t happen during the conference; it happened
during the Friday evening service. There were some remnants leftover from the
conference (like me), a few Bethel leaders, but not many of their highest level
of leaders and all the high-profile worship bands were taking the night off
because they had been worshipping with us during the conference, so the band
was made up of interns. Mostly, we were everyday people, worshipping and loving
Jesus.
We had been worshipping for about an hour and the worship
time was coming to a close; we were directed to pray for one another and then
the band would play another song before transitioning into the message portion
but God decided to show up in the glory cloud. I had my eyes closed in worship
and my friend nudged me and told me to look up. Above our heads was a swirling
cloud of gold sparkles – it was amazing.
The most radical part was I didn’t feel any different. Prior
to this experience, I tried to imagine what it would have been like to
experience a glory cloud – would I sing? Would I jump up and down? Would I fall
down? None of those things happened – I simply looked and cried tears of
happiness because God chose to reveal himself so my eyes could see it but I
didn’t feel a rush of heat, or any other kind of sensation on my skin. I didn’t
feel any more or less peace or joy or love. We continued to worship for another
hour or more, all the while the glory would hover over, seeming to fall upward.
It stayed over our heads but also went towards the stage, over the musicians.
This is what I learned from the glory cloud: whether we see
God physically manifested in a glory cloud or not is not indicative of whether
or not he is present. I loved the gold sparkles in the cloud and it was an
incredible gift from a loving daddy but God was already there and I was already
enjoying his Presence whether I could see it or not.
Bethel church is an awesome place to encounter God. I’ve
been to Bethel four times in the last year (it’s about a 12 hour drive each
way) because I want to be anywhere I can experience God like that. Does God
love Bethel more than my church, or your church? No, I don’t believe so but Bethel
has been fostering the Presence for years; there is maturity.
If we want to experience what Bethel experiences personally
and corporately in our churches, we must
get out of the mindset that we have be somewhere special and know, just as Jacob
discovered in Genesis 28:16, God was already there, he just didn’t know it. Jesus
lived under an open heaven, and Jesus’ life is resurrected in us. Therefore, we
live under an open heaven.
If I really believed it, how would my life look different?
How would your life look different, if you fully grasped the revelation that we
host the Presence all the time?
This is some video footage I took with my iPhone, just after people started noticing it. It was hard to get a good shot but you can see the sparkles - that's the glory cloud.
Andrea, thank you for this beautiful reminder of what we already and always have--His Presence within us, around us, moving and working in and through us.
ReplyDeleteI just moved back to Washington after living in Redding for 1-1/2 years, and it has been a hard transition for many reasons, not the least of which is that I miss the atmosphere there. I have seen the glory cloud at least two times, and other times I've seen it swirling high on the ceiling there without really forming into a cloud. And it inspires in me some of the same ways you described...He's here all the time like this...we just don't always see him. Your descriptions of the cloud and what it's like to worship in that atmosphere are perfect descriptions! And though I miss it, I feel His Spirit speaking to my heart the reminder that you gave--I live in that atmosphere no matter what I feel or see or think.
You've reminded me that He is always with me whether I feel Him or not, whether others are pursuing His Presence or not, and whether I see Him or not. I'm choosing to look more carefully and to steward well what He has given me so that I may grow in maturity.